Handling Blasphemous thoughts and the fear of offending God

Sometimes our thoughts cause us to question our faith and its genuineness.

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Some thoughts feel wrong.

Not uncomfortable. Not confusing. But out of bounds.

Like they crossed a line you didn’t even know your mind was able to cross.

And almost immediately, a new question arrives:

“Did I just offend God?”

“Was that the unforgivable sin?”

“Does that thought mean I am a fake believer?”

These thoughts often feel different from everything else.

Not just because of what they say or imagine.

But because of who they are directed toward: God

They can feel:

• “Irreverent”

• “Dirty”

• “Even blasphemous”

And because of that, they don’t just create anxiety, they create fear.

Blake didn’t want to say the thought out loud.

Obviously the thought had embarrasing aspects to it, otherwise he would have been more willing to share the thought.

Blake seemed shocked as he looked back at the thoughts:

• “Did I really just think that?”

• “Why on earth would my brain create such a twisted visual?”

After thinking for a moment he said, “I’m sorry but I don’t think I am able to describe what the thought was.”

These thoughts can be difficult to describe, not because they are unclear, but because many don’t want to same them out loud.

After all, many are running so hard from the thoughts and working so tirelessly to neutralize the thoughts and that by verbalizing, they fear they will give it some sort of additional hold over their lives.

Or at the very least, make them look very odd.

A Variety of Kinds

The range of the thoughts wasn’t always limited to only one thing.

Sometimes, they were less about being “dirty” and more about being “disrespectful.”

Regardless, they all had a similar theme–––going against what Blake claimed to believe and who he wanted to be.

“Is this the devil?” He would ask himself.

“Am I some sort of terrible human being?”

“What is wrong in my head that I would think that?”

And worse yet for Blake, these thoughts would occur during reading his Bible.

Or during praying throughout the day.

Or even sometimes while singing songs.

Because of that, they don’t just feel random––they feel targeted.

Does This Mean Something?

He feared that by having these thoughts that they said something about his spirtitual health.

“Did I offend God?”

“Does this mean I am not a genuine believer?”

“Am I really saved?”

Blakes faith was no trivial thing to him, it was the center of who he claimed to be.

He was respected and trusted by others.

“These thoughts must be a sign of something,” he thought.

He Got Determined

Black could understand how someone could theoretically have some of the thoughts he was having.

After all the world is full of brokeness, and individuals that rejoice in evil.

But that wasn’t Blake.

So, he became determined to rid himself of such tainting things.

One day he memorized five different bible verses and tried to repeat them to himself any time the thoughts arrived.

Blake also began trying to pray the thoughts away.

At first, during his morning and evenings.

But when that didn’t work, he added several time slots throughout his day.

However, he became really introspective and thought maybe it had something to do with the kind of content that he had viewed online before.

Or that it had something to do with some of the friends he had or the movies he had watched.

Blake did a lot to try to rid himself of anything he thought might be contributing to the thoughts.

These thoughts were hitting something he cared about heavily, his faith.

This was something he didn’t want to get wrong.

So he new better than to just ignore the thoughts.

The Wrong End of The Stick

One time I was sitting with a much older gentleman and he said “I understand what you are trying to do here but, you are working on this from the wrong end of the stick.”

At first, I didn’t understand what he meant.

He clarified: “The thing you are doing that you think is the solution, isn’t helping you. It’s making things actually worse for you.”

Sometimes the solutions we try aren’t actually helpful.

Sometimes what seems like spirituality and faith, may actually not be.

It’s not that the spiritual activities that Blake was doing were inherently wrong.

No, they were good.

But, they were misguided for this situation.

Yes, of course he needs to saturate his life in the Truth.

Yes, of course he needs to devote time to talking to God about what bothers or troubles his heart.

Yes, of course he should rid his life of evil.

But here’s where things began to shift in a way Blake didn’t see at first.

The goal quietly changed.

It was no longer: “I want to walk beside God faithfully.”

It became: “I need these thoughts to go away.”

And once that became the goal, everything else started orbiting around it.

The Bible wasn’t just something he read, it became something he used to neutralize.

Prayer wasn’t just commuion with God.

It became an attempt to fix what he was feeling.

And without realizing it, something good had become part of the struggle.

A Counterintutive Response

The issue wasn’t that he was not giving these thoughts enough attention and focus––but too much.

Blake wanted to honor God with his life.

That is a good thing.

But for Blake they were a spiritualized form of reassurance and control.

It’s something to stand on while it’s there.

That is the faith he needed to live out.

For you, you have to use the truth to anchor yourself while the thought is there.

Set Your Mind

Don’t misunderstand this is not criticism of Blake.

Taking a thought captive doesn’t always mean analying it or defeating it.

Sometimes it means recognizing it for what it is and not letting it lead you.

Yes, you should read and pray and live out the Word daily.

But when you are using those things as a way to make the thought go away, they can become part of the ritual.

Understand what I am saying, I am for high engagement of the Word as we struggle.

But it has to be used as intended.

The Bible is not meant to function as a tool to quiet every intrusive thought.

It’s meant to ground you in what is true–even when your thoughts are not.

Blake did everything he could to fix the thoughts.

And yet they didn’t leave.

Because he wasn’t feeding the thoughts less––he was feeding them in a different way.

Hope For Today

You can recognize the thought and allow it to be there.

If you make the goal to make the thoughts go away. They never will. You will always be self-assessing.

But if you make the goal to live for the glory of God.

That is where change begins to enter in.

If that is the central thing – you get busy doing what he has called you to.

And you stop giving the thought the central place and focus of your life.

Genuine faith begins to sound more like:

• “That thought does not reflect what I believe.”

• “I don’t know the reason it arrived.”

• “But I’m not going to build my day around it.”

And instead, you return to what God has actually set in front of you.

Let me close by saying this.

If you fear you have offended God by what you have thought, you are not alone.

But that is not where you have to stay.

You can move forward.

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